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Outside the Lines is both a thriller and a family drama. It tells the story of two women: Cathleen, a troubled young woman living in the northern suburbs of Johannesburg; and Flora, who is the domestic worker at Cathleen�s house. Cathleen disappears � tensions and drama ensue.
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07 mars 2016

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4

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9781928215134

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English

Published in 2016 by Modjaji Books
PO Box 385, Athlone, 7760, Cape Town, South Africa
www.modjajibooks.co.za
© Ameera Patel
Ameera Patel has asserted her right to be identified as the author of this work.
All rights reserved.
No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, mechanical or electronic, including photocopying or recording, or be stored in any information storage or retrieval system without permission from the publisher.
Edited by Andie Miller
Cover artwork and text by Hannah Morris
Book layout by Andy Thesen
Printed and bound by Megadigital, Cape Town
ISBN: 978-1-928215-12-7
ebook: 978-1-928215-13-4
To Iyla who gave me perspective and to Jaques who gave me Iyla.
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Cathleen
Falling out from the roots
She is usually fine with being alone but tonight the unfamiliar faces make her feel cold. They stare out looking at no one in particular. A sea of mannequins jerking awkwardly to the offbeat of the music. She is unseen.
She pretends she is the lead in her own music video, walking through a sea of extras paid not to look at her. She is golden; a god, extending from the retro carpet up to the dark ceiling.
She grinds her teeth, straining against each other. The enamel squeaks in time with the DJ’s trigger finger.
She scans the room. Her eyes are a torch. Searching. But there is no soothing familiarity. No calm. No exciting leap of her stomach with the recognition of safety in a face across the room.
She wades through the crowd. Its heaviness peels away at her skin as she forces her way towards the toilets.
The wooden door is swollen from damp and opens to hipster girls in the chipped mirror, reapplying eyeliner beneath their wide-rimmed glasses. Their eyes are judgemental and visionless. There’s an open stall and she finds refuge with a turn of the silver lock. The toilet has no lid. She wipes a tiled ledge below the window with some toilet paper. Then she taps her little plastic bag and allows some of the white powder to fall out. Two fingers swipe the edge of the card and then rub across her gums. She pulls a ten rand note out of her purse.
Roll up. Place on line. Block one nostril. Inhale, switch and repeat.
It’s funny, cocaine smells a lot like money; or maybe money smells like cocaine.
She runs her fingers across the tile for any last traces of hope and finds a sense of calm.
Okay.
She is as happy as Tammy who loves Brian so boldly she was willing to tell every user of this stall. How many other stalls has Tammy been into? Has this confession been witnessed across the city?
What if things don’t work out for the two of them? Will Tammy return to every stall and adjust the statement? ‘Tammy loves Brian – no more.’
Or will the lie remain printed across peeling walls until the cheap-arse owners finally decide to whitewash the young lovers away?
There’s a knock on the door. Her chipped nails flush the clean bowl and unlatch.
She is ready.
The wide eyes of girls in line for the toilets stare as she lifts her chin and checks her nose for white crusties. She’s clean, but continues to stare. She removes her hair band. It’s knotted with blonde strands twisted into each other. She shakes her head but her hair is oily. The strands have matted together. Her fingers work at separating the clumps of hair. If only she could arrange them more interestingly, maybe people won’t notice the dirt. She finally settles on a dishevelled messy do, like the start of a bird’s nest. Wiping a piece of tissue beneath her eyes, she removes the black sediment left by her eyeliner. She pops a piece of Infinity gum into her already-gyrating mouth and readies herself for the pulse vibrating through the wooden door. A careful application of blood red lipstick completes the look and she smiles at herself.
Her mind races. The girls in line are all dressed the same. They’re everything that’s wrong with the world. Identical and scratching away at their individuality to become one pus-filled blob. She tries to hold onto the thought, but it slips away. The butter fingers of her mind are unable to catch it.
She doesn’t panic. Fresh topics of conversation will appear with the same ease that these have disappeared.
She’s ready. She’s open.
The lighting has changed and the extras are on a break. Their eyes have been given permission to notice her but there is hesitation in their body language.
She is the unapproachable pseudo-celebrity in the room.
Patting her new hairdo, she struts to the bar and waves a hundred rand note at the bartender.
‘What can I get you, honey?’ His teeth have started to discolour; yellow-brown patches have begun to form.
‘A shot of tequila and a double vodka with water.’
She takes the shot, turns and faces the room. She scans it once more. She’s not looking for the familiar any longer. The room has broken into groups. The serious dancer types circle the DJ, praising his alternative mixes, sweat racing down their bodies and into their high-top sneakers. Groups of girls and guys play obvious mating games between the bar and the darker corners of the room. Smaller gatherings, in heated debates, decorate the tables.
She spots another single. He walks to the bar.
She was looking for more. She was looking to feel alive, for someone to make the night extraordinary.
He is underwhelming. He sits down next to her.
‘You on your own?’ His eyes are fiery but his face is long and thin, like the face of a horse.
‘No, I’m not. There are at least seventy people around.’
He smiles, exposing little gaps between his teeth. A coin could get stuck in one of those gaps.
She laughs. ‘Yes, I’m alone.’
He buys her a tequila.
The wonderful thing about coke is that it helps with feeling sober. She is lucid and loving her own company. Her overactive mind tries to focus on the freshness in his eyes. It’s the only part of him that is anywhere close to being attractive. If she stares into his eyes for long enough, will the rest of him improve? She wants to like him, despite his badly tailored short-sleeved shirt and gold chain. He could make the night bearable, so she stares deep into his eyes trying hard to avoid the bland background of his face. He seems to be enjoying the attention. She’s making him feel special but keeps blanking on his name.
‘The only reason I keep forgetting it is because it doesn’t suit your face,’ she explains. ‘You look like an Eddie.’
And that’s what she calls him for the rest of the night.
‘What kind of a party are you looking for tonight?’ He squints at her.
‘It depends, do you have any mix?’ She plays his game but is not yet certain that she’s ready to share her stash with him.
‘I have a two litre in the car.’ He smiles his gap-toothed smile. She assumes he means two grams and they head outside.
The air is a crisp wake up call. Little raised bumps appear on her skin. Eddie hustles into a tattered black jacket. He puts his arm around her and steers her down the street and around the corner to a small blue car. She doesn’t know much about cars but she does know that this one is particularly dirty. It smells like old McDonald’s and feet inside. She’s forced to open a window. The cold air keeps her alert. He starts the car and drives to an isolated spot. It probably wasn’t a good idea to leave with him. She should’ve waited inside while he went to fetch the coke. They could have done it in the toilets, like she usually does. But here they are. The two of them, parked in the middle of Joburg city at 1:30 in the morning. High-rise buildings loom like giants over them. She startles at every little sound. The streets in this part of town are dark and empty. She wants to tell him to turn the ignition back on and head back to the people but doesn’t want to seem paranoid. Plus, he’s already started to decant his sachet on
the dashboard so they can’t move until they’ve done it.
‘You want to go first?’ He hands her a note.
She takes a line.
She starts to relax. They’re safe here, she decides.
He takes a line and hands the note back to her.
There are four more lines on the dashboard. They finish them quickly.
He offers her a cigarette. His soft pack is crumpled and the cigarette that comes out of it is bent. She taps it against the dashboard and puts it to her lips. He strikes a match, cupping his hand around the flame to protect it from non-existent wind. The back of her throat burns a little. Before she knows it, the cigarette is finished.
She lights another.
He runs his hand through her hair and starts to undo the extravagant nest. His hands rub hard against her scalp and she closes her eyes. Her hair feels thick and soft under his touch. His fingers are calloused, with uneven nails that snag her hair. They slip down to her neck. He pulls her head towards him and pokes his thin tongue into her mouth. All she can think of is a bird feeding its baby.
He looks at her. The twinkle is gone. ‘You have shit under your nose.’ He looks away as she flips the mirror on the sun visor down.
She sees herself. She sees puffed-up semicircles under the eyes of a sunken face. She looks old.
He starts to cut more lines but she continues to stare. Her hair has separated into fine strands. She runs her fingers along the exposed scalp. He looks at her. S

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