Why Did He Die?

Kevin O'Grady (Ahonu)

Description

Ahonu’s baby was found dead in his crib. There was no sound, no struggle. The postmortem failed to show an adequate cause of death. This 3-part series is the desperate story of a father’s grief, and his struggle with the aftermath of loss and guilt. It reveals the author’s truth about death, and ironically, how it revealed his life’s purpose. Join Ahonu on this epic voyage, from the pain and sorrow of a father’s grief, to the new world of forgiveness and twin flame love. If grief, sadness, suicide, depression, loss or abandonment have touched you, this book may help you make sense of life and death and help you find who you are and why you are here!

Dedication iii

Author’s Note iv

The Shop 4

The Hospital 9

The Grandparents 15

The Babysitter 20

The Morgue 28

The Birthday Card 33

The Undertaker 38

The Coffin 43

The Fire 46

The Cemetery 50

The Aftermath 60

The Courthouse 66

The Price Must Be Paid 70

The Robbery 71

The Pub 74

The Flashbacks 79

Sad Sam 85

The Forty Foot 90

The Couple 100

The Booklet 106

Maori Venture 111

The Call To New York 115

About Ahonu 118

Acknowledgements 119

Keep Reading 122

Connect with the Author 123

More to Explore 124

Sujets

• Christian Living
• Bereavement
• Philosophie et théologie
• Pregnancy
• Parenting
• Religion
• Grief
• Anger
• Death

Informations

• Publié par: Twin Flame Productions LLC
• Date de parution: 12 juin 2022
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9798885440073
• Langue: English

Extrait

Why Did He Die?

The Healing Grief Series
Book One


Kevin (Ahonu) O’Grady
Contents



Healing From Grief

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Author's Note


1. A Father's Grief

2. The Hospital

3. The Grandparents

4. The Babysitter

5. The Morgue

6. The Birthday Card

7. The Undertaker

8. The Coffin

9. The Fire

10. The Cemetery

11. The Aftermath

12. The Courthouse

13. The Price Must Be Paid

14. The Robbery

15. The Pub

16. The Flashbacks

17. Sad Sam

18. The Forty Foot

19. The Couple

20. The Booklet

21. Maori Venture

22. The Call to New York


About Ahonu

Acknowledgments

Keep Reading

Connect With Ahonu

More to Explore
Healing From Grief



3-Book Series
Book 1 - Why Did He Die?
Book 2 - The Reincarnation of Columbus
Book 3 - The Angel Of The Forest


by

Kevin O’Grady (AHONU)

https://ahonu.com
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Copyright © 2022 Kevin O’Grady (AHONU)
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means including information and retrieval systems without prior written permission from the publisher.


O’Grady, Kevin (aka Ahonu), 1958 –
If you’ve been touched by grief, loss, depression, or abandonment, this true story will help you make sense of it all. You may even find who you are and why you are here.
First published in February 2014 as The Reincarnation of Columbus . Republished as a 3-book series on 12 June 2022.
Book 1 - Why Did He Die? ISBN: 9798885440066
Book 2 - Because He Died ISBN: 9798885440097
Book 3 - Because He Lived ISBN: 9798885440127
Artwork : AHONU Manuscript editor : AHONU Manuscript designer : AHONU
Printed in the United States of America
Warning – Limits of Liability and Disclaimer of Warranty The author and publisher shall not be liable for your misuse of the material in this book. It is strictly for informational and entertainment purposes only. The author or publisher do not guarantee or warrant that anyone following the techniques, suggestions, tips, ideas, or strategies in this book will become successful at anything. The author and/or publisher shall have neither liability nor responsibility to anyone with respect to any loss or damage howsoever caused, or alleged to be caused, directly or indirectly by the information contained in this book. Always consult a licensed health practitioner for all health issues.


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Nay, be a Columbus to whole new continents and worlds within you, opening new channels, not of trade, but of thought.
Henry David Thoreau
I dedicate this series to Ryan Columbus O’Grady. At birth he gave me my first miracle, at four months old he became, for me, the greatest teacher who ever lived.
And to my twin flame Aingeal Rose who took those teachings and brought deep spiritual understanding to them, opening up new channels of thought to whole new worlds within me. You taught me that love doesn’t hurt and that love is all there is.
Your commitment to the growth of awareness in the world is now my commitment—your beautiful consciousness underlines all of what I teach. It’s a divine privilege to share my business, my life, and my love with you.
Author's Note





My baby was found dead in his crib when he was four months old. There was no sound, no struggle. A post-mortem failed to show an adequate cause of death. The recorded cause was Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS) or Crib, or Cot Death.
Ryan Columbus O’Grady was a healthy, thriving four-month- old. The fact that he died on my birthday seemed to intensify, in some cruel way, the pain I suffered each anniversary since!
These books are a 3-part series first published as The Reincarnation of Columbus . They are the true story of my struggle with guilt and the coming to terms with my loss. They are a father’s pain, a man's struggle, because, like me, many men bury their feelings with their loved ones.
I’ve documented in the first book Why Did He Die? the ruinous effect this old male approach to grief had on my life, and in doing so, I hope it helps heal the malaise, the mediocrity, the buried pain, the unforgiven, the unsaid, the hidden hurt in fathers and all those left behind after the death of a child. To do this, men must relearn to cry.
The series was written from my need to journal about my feelings, to release myself from the pain and guilt that began to rot me from the inside, from the moment of his death.
These books are my journey of self-discovery.
They are the account of the profound effects his death had on my life as an adult male, telling in graphic detail the results of buried emotion on family, friends and business relationships. It is a painful and sometimes desperate story of my struggle to move out of mediocrity into a life deeply searching for soul purpose.
There were many times during the course of writing these books that I questioned the logic of re-opening the wounds of grief. As I wrote, read and re-read the words, I continually relived the horror of the experience and the feelings of abandonment I came through. I recognized it was the maleness in me not wanting to cry, not wanting to be vulnerable, not wanting to accept mortality, not wanting to accept Ryan’s death for what it was.
Ryan’s death resulted in the loss of my business at the time, and several other subsequent businesses, which brought my family and I to our financial knees. It stretched my relationship with his mother inevitably to divorce. Yet the patience her family showed to me during that time stirred in me feelings of deep appreciation, until all that was found to have no substance, either.
While this is a true story, I have changed some people’s names, places, products, street addresses, and other information as necessary to help protect those that were an inextricable part of my life story. The content is to the best of my knowledge and memory, complete and accurate. However some dates, facts and sequence of events may be sketchy due to the passage of time and the effects of trauma. Trauma does these things to us, and sometimes makes it very difficult to piece together an exact sequence, especially many years after the event.
In some cases, it became necessary to reconstruct parts that had escaped my memory, and missing dialogue was purposely filled in to make sense of the circumstances in which I found myself.
In addition, there is a span of time of over 30 years covered in these books, necessitating compacting numerous disparate events into single chapters. Because of this, I take no responsibility for inaccuracies.
Please bear in mind that the guidelines about crib death quoted in this book are from A Father’s Grief booklet I helped write for the Irish Sudden Infant Death Association (ISIDA) in the late 1980s, and many of these guidelines have been refuted, reversed or at least updated since then. Please refer to their publications for the latest guidelines and results of up-to-date research on SIDS.
This series is published in the USA. As such the spelling is US English and names like Crib Death are used throughout the text as opposed to Cot Death, which is the name for Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS) commonly used in Ireland and Europe.
Also, it is necessary to point out, while some guidance is given to the reader by way of my own learning; this is my story. It outlines the way I reacted, and documents the physical, mental and emotional reactions I had to my son’s death. I am not a medical practitioner and as such, any guidance is not purposed to replace professional medical diagnosis, treatment or advice. You should always consult a qualified healthcare professional about any medical condition including those that are stress- related.
That said, many old attitudes still pervade the mainstream medical professions. I hope this series helps to change some of the old attitudes, especially the inadvisability of boys and men to cry. I hope they bring about a new worldview of sexuality towards women and motherhood. I hope they help change our thinking around the purpose of pain and death, and help in some small way, to return us to clarity, understanding and joy.
I hope these books help us all to move out of mediocrity and into the real, deep love and forgiveness for ourselves, for the first time in a long time, for all time.
Since Ryan’s death I have lived in 2 countries engaging head-on in the major growth of awareness that many are experiencing at this time. The experiences documented in these books increased my psychic abilities and accelerated my healing, revealing the effect Twin Flame couples have in helping re-pattern the Divine Masculine & Feminine on Earth.
The death of a loved one impacts each person’s perception about life and death in different ways. I hope everyone who has been touched by loss will be more open and expressive of his or her grief than I was.
This is my truth about death, and paradoxically, how it led to my life. My story revealed my life purpose to me. It revealed to me who I am, and why I am here. I hope it will help you find who you are, and why you are here!
If the pain I re-lived in writing this series helps even one person recover from grief, or to make sense of life, or death, or, as Henry David Thoreau said when referring to Columbus, it opens ‘… new channels, not of trade, but of thought, ’ it will have been worthwhile.
Blessings,
KEVIN O’GRADY (AHONU)
Prescott, AZ
A Father's Grief
The Shop



T he shop was tiny, with one door and one window onto the street. Yet everything connected with the stationery and office equipment business was there, packed in boxes on the shelves or stacked neatly in piles on the floor for delivery that day. It wasn’t the kind of place you cou