He Said He Loved Me but His Addictions Came First

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He Said He Loved Me but His Addictions Came First is about a woman whose life was turned upside down by a man whom she thought was her everything. This man had all the qualities she had been searching for throughout her life. She thought this man was the one and they were going to live a love-filled life, but she later finds out that not everything is what it seems and things can change within the blink of an eye. That the man she had fallen so deep in love with could not be the man that was so hell-bent on destroying her life. Being taken through hell and back again made her life change for the worst. The life she thought she was going to have with this man came with lies, theft, robbery, drugs, jail, baby mama drama, and his addiction to drugs and the street life. Will she see him for who he really is or will she finally give in and walk away?

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• Romance

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• Publié par: Austin Macauley Publishers
• Date de parution: 30 octobre 2020
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9781645751465
• Langue: English
• Poids de l'ouvrage: 4 Mo

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He Said He Loved Me but His Addictions Came First
TRD
Austin Macauley Publishers
2020-10-30
He Said He Loved Me but His Addictions Came First About the Author Dedication Copyright Information © Acknowledgment Ch. 1: Why Me? Present Ch. 2: Jermaine Ch. 3: Rick Ch. 4: After Jermaine Ch. 5: Secret Places Ch. 6: The Baby and Drugs Roommate Ch. 7: The Big Move Ch. 8: Birthday Cabin Ch. 9: Bad Roommate Ch. 10: First Holiday Ch. 11: Remembering Truth Ch. 12: Christmas Came and She Went Ch. 13: Baby Girl Amber Ch. 14: Christmas Woos Ch. 15: New Year’s Ch. 16: First Jail Trip Ch. 17: Did Not Learn Ch. 18: Garrett’s Out Ch. 19: Things Are not What They Seem Ch. 20: Wish Granted Ch. 21: What to do Now?
About the Author

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They see her as the person they would go to for advice when they have no one else to go to. The author is a light of joy that can bright up any room and her sense of humor is like no other. She always has a quick comeback. She lifts you up when you are down, and she never gives up on you. She is thoughtful, caring, nurturing, and not a day goes by that she is not praying for you. She is like no other.
Dedication
To the man who made me realize my truth by showing me his. You will always have a place in my heart because what we share is real.
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He Said He Loved Me but His Addictions Came First
ISBN 9781645751458 (Paperback)
ISBN 9781645751441 (Hardback)
ISBN 9781645751465(ePub e-book)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2020918206
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Acknowledgment
I would like to thank God, my family, and my friends for being there for me. I would mostly like to thank Garrett M. for encouraging me to write our story. If I had not met him; who is to say I would have a story to tell?
Ch. 1: Why Me?
My life has not always been this great adventure when it comes to love, in fact, it has been the opposite since I first thought I was in love at the age of 14 to this senior named A.D. Men have been my downfall and I do not know why. Well, I may have a clue but not sure I am ready to accept that fact just yet. Let us just say, my love life is for shits and giggles, but everything else around me is great. So here goes nothing on how my love life has completely got me looking like a fool on every given occasion with these men who have no clue what a “Good Woman” is or looks like. Yes, I am a woman that men finally realize what they have when I am gone, and they realize what I was worth after I was not with them. Seems to be quite common these days for good women. I guess being a THOT is more acceptable these days. For those of you that do not know what a THOT is, let me tell you. The word THOT comes from black slang and it breaks down into “That Hoe Over There!” Go figure, right.
Now, to be honest, I could be a hoe given my history with men, but we all do stupid shit when we are in high school and college. We are trying to find our identity and if that means sleeping around to find yourself. Oh well! I cannot really say I slept around though because I always had a boyfriend, but I did not lose my virginity to A.D. and when we got together, I was a virgin. I just so happened to like this other guy as well and he looked way better than A.D. and OMG, he was simply great. He just so happened to invite my BFF at the time and me over to his house while his mom was at work and one thing lead to another. Crazy thing is, I told him I had a man and I told him who it was, and he tells me, “That is my cousin and trust me, he really doesn’t want you like that.”
I look at him and say, “Is that right?” I knew for a fact his cousin wanted me because he made it clear to everyone in the hallway at school, I belonged to him. Plus, A.D. and I had been together eight months but still had not had sex. Now that I think about it, A.D. cousin might have been right. What guy is really waiting that long for sex especially at our age and where still in high school? Well, I lost my virginity to A.D.’s cousin and he was hooked. All that talk guys do and he was wanting it every chance he got. And every chance we got; I gave it to him. I am quite sure this is where my man troubles really started, and I am fairly sure if that THOT were a thing back in the ’90s. I would have been one. OH WELL! OK, back to the real reason I am writing this.

Present
After one year and five months, you want to decide now that you do not want me going through this part of your recovery. The words I so heartedly uttered to my so-called boyfriend who is getting out of rehab and being placed in a recovery home for the next six months. He has the fucking nerves to tells me I need to move on and go be with someone else because he is not going to have time for me because he is going to be too busy. This bitch even had the fucking audacity to tell me that I could get pregnant by my BFF (my best fucking friend) who I used to have sex with off and on for the past four years until he went off to prison. Now, that is some bullshit. Now, mind you, my best friend is my ex-sex toy and while Garrett was in jail, my best friend and I were “allowed” to have sex for me to have a baby. Crazy right, but I will fill you in on that part later.
In my mind, I am thinking, are you fucking kidding me, dude? I just spent the last five months putting money on your books, buying you commissary, and putting money on for fucking phone calls, and after all that, I still decided to stay around for the 28 more days you had to do in rehab, then you tell me this bullshit five days before you are about to graduate. I mean I know that this was a shock to us all about you going to the recovery home but why to take it out on me. Like, was I not there for you from start till now? It does not even matter now, fuck you. How could you do this to me and why do this to me now? I wanted to just knock his head off his damn shoulders, but I could not because people were present. This is what you call some bitch nigga shit. A pussy ass moves if you ask me. Right in front of his mom, stepdad, and the therapist, he is telling me this bullshit, and as hard as I tried to hold back my tears. They come streaming down my face like a damn waterfall. I just could not believe him and all the lies he had been feeding me from day one. Right at that very moment, I wish he would go straight to hell with no return policy attached. Even though he said I could go fuck my BFF, Jermaine, I was not going to but now, I am fucking glad I did, and I wished I did get pregnant by Jermaine. That would have been the icing on the cake. Fucking dick!!!
Like, why would your so-called man tell you to just let him go and go fuck your ex-sex toy? Is his self-esteem low or is he holding off for someone else? I had no clue what was going on in Garrett’s head and I am sure I did not want to know given that fact that he is an ass. I mean a person can only tolerate so much, but when you are in love, the tolerance level seems to have an infinity clause attached. I would do anything for this man and he just let me go with no tears, no feelings, no nothing. It would have been easier if he at least said, “Renee, I love you, and I do want to be with you and when I finish these six months. You are I are going to get married like I have been saying for months now.” I now know that jail talk does exist and when he did not follow through. I fell apart. Then I started to think about Jermaine and wondered if it had anything to do with him and why he wanted me to let him be.
Ch. 2: Jermaine
Now let me rewind back to my BFF, Jermaine, and how my so-called man decided to tell me to go fuck him and to see if I can get pregnant by him. See, Jermaine and I have known each other since he was 22 years old and I was 32 years old. Yes, there is a ten-year age gap, but he did not act 22 at all. I had always heard of Jermaine from my actual best friend Monic and she would go on and on about him every time he would ride by her house. Monic would talk about how fucking sexy he was and how he looked like Trey Songz. I basically just ignored everything she was telling me because I was not trying to hear anything about no boy. Then I started to remember my girl, Chelly, who would show me pictures and showed me videos of her son and she would always talk about how he looked like Trey Songz as well. One day, Monic and I were sitting outside on her porch talking and drinking and here comes this blue Monty Carlo, banging, and I look and see this brown skin face smile and look at us when Monic yells, “Hey, Jermaine.” Monic tells me that is who she has been talking about looking like Trey Songz. Monic was not lying about him looking like Trey Songz. He was a breath of fresh air and it did not help that I loved o