Surrendered My Heart to A Cold Love 3

Kelly Marie

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• Publié par: Sullivan Group Publishing, LLC
• Date de parution: 25 décembre 2018
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9781648541797
• Langue: English

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Surrendered My Heart to A Cold Love 3


Kelly Marie
© 2018
Published by Leo Sullivan Presents
www.leolsullivan.com


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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental. Unauthorized reproduction, in any manner, is prohibited.
Creed Augustus

The night before
“A re you pregnant for me or not, Blessing?”
I held the gun down by my side to show her that I wasn’t fucking around. Not to-fucking-day!
It took a lot for me to come to see her, and I wasn’t about to get played again. Fuck that!
“Yes, I’m pregnant for you, Creed.”
“So, what the fuck do you mean you’re gonna tell me that they’re not mine?” I gritted.
She sighed. “Because I’m tired of all the fucking fighting, Creed! I’m tired of all the back and forth with you, and I just want it to stop! I can’t take any more, so if telling you that you’re not the father is gonna stop the drama, then fine! I have these babies to think about, Creed, and fighting with you isn’t worth their lives!!”
I watched as angry tears flowed down her face, and I couldn’t even say anything.
Out of everything that was going on, I didn’t even think about what effect our fighting would have on the babies. Whether I believed they were mine or not, I didn’t want anything to happen to them.
With a sigh, I ran a hand down my face.
“They are your babies, Creed. I never slept with another man, but if you don’t want to know, I’m not gonna fight you anymore.”
I looked up at her and nodded.
“I believe you,” I finally admitted.
Blessing and Donna both gasped.
“What did you say?” Donna’s fast ass asked, and I sighed again.
“I said that I believe you, Blessing.”
Everyone kept saying that if I didn’t know anything else, I knew Blessing, and they were right. She wasn’t someone who lied. Had never been that way, and I couldn’t continue to deny that.
“Could we just talk… alone, please?” I asked Blessing and then looked at Donna.
She folded her arms across her chest and shifted her weight to one leg.
Although I didn’t really have a problem talking in front of my sister, this was something that Blessing and I needed to talk about alone.
Blessing must have agreed because she looked back at Donna too, who then rolled her eyes and dropped her arms.
“Fine! But I’m going into the bedroom just in case you try something, Creed.”
My jaw dropped. “The fuck is that supposed to mean? I ain’t gonna do anything to her!”
That rubbed me the wrong way because I was never a nigga who put my hands on a female. I was the type who would just find a female to beat their ass instead.
“Mmmm hmmm,” Donna sassed on her way out of the room. “Yell if you need me, girl!” she threw over her shoulder to Blessing, and I shook my head.
Blessing and I stood in silence just staring at each other.
I had so much to say but didn’t know where the fuck to start.
Thankfully, Blessing saw that I was just struggling and decided to talk first.
“Why not just ask for a DNA test, Creed? I would have happily given you that. But why do all of this? I never expected that, and it hurt more than everything else.” She sniveled, and I dropped my head.
“I was just mad as fuck, Blessing. I thought you were playing mind games, and I was confused too.”
“But I would never do something like that, Creed! You should have known that.”
I nodded because she was right, but I had my reasons.
“It wasn’t you why I was acting like that, Blessing.”
Looking at the confused expression on her face, I took a deep breath and decided to share something with her that nobody knew, not even my parents.
“When I was nineteen, I started seeing this girl. We started off just messing around, but it eventually got serious, and she ended up pregnant. Man, I was so fucking scared but excited!”
I chuckled to myself as I remembered.
“She was only eighteen and scared of what her parents would say, so she didn’t want anyone to know right away. Which is why I never told my parents or Donna. Anyway, we continued to be together and hide that she was pregnant. I dealt with it until she started to show, and that’s when I wanted to tell our parents, but she didn’t.”
My jaw clenched, and I grit my back teeth.
“I bought her ass a ring and everything. Told her I would marry her, tell her parents, and all that shit. I did everything for her! Bought all that our baby would need and moved her in with me. And then she told me the truth. The baby wasn’t mine, and her parents knew who the real father was, which was why she was hiding me.”
With a shake of my head, I chuckled again.
“I was mad as fuck! But, still, like a fool, I thought she was lying until I met the dude she was fucking around with. Turned out that I was her side nigga. Anyway, I demanded a test because I just didn’t want to believe it, but she was right. The baby wasn’t mine.”
I looked at Blessing, and I could see that she was hurting for me.
“That shit broke me down. From the moment she told me she was pregnant, I was there! I went to every fucking doctor’s appointment, rubbed her fucking feet, and spoke to her stomach every night. I heard the fucking baby’s heartbeat!”
To control my anger, I had to take a few deep breaths. Talking about it was like I was reliving it.
It truly was the lowest point of my life.
“She admitted to telling me I was the father because I was starting to make some money on the streets with my cousin. Her baby father was in jail at the time, so she used me until he came home.” I chuckled.
“After that, I got with Sasha, and shit was good, only for me to find out that I could never have kids. That shit did something to me, Blessing. First, I was duped into believing a kid was mine, and then I was told I couldn’t have kids.”
Just talking about it made me feel angry all over again.
“And then you came back into my life, Blessing, and you made me feel like everything was gonna be okay. I confided in you about finding out I couldn’t have kids, and I thought you were using my pain to play with my mind. And I lost it. You were that calm in my life, the first thing that made sense, and it hurt to think you were lying to me.”
There was no excuse for how I had behaved, but it was the truth.
Dealing with Abigail had fucked me up, and I got over that while I was with Sasha, but then I was knocked down again and told I was infertile. That shit hurt more than the bullshit that Abigail pulled because I was so fixed on having a baby with Sasha to make up for how lost I felt after finding out Abi’s baby wasn’t mine.
Then, Blessing comes along saying she was pregnant for me, and my mind told me she was fucking with me and that this was Abigail all over again.
I mean, a qualified doctor told me I was infertile. Of course, I was gonna believe that and think Blessing was lying. I didn’t even want to waste time with a test when I knew I wasn’t the father all along. I honestly didn’t have the strength to go down that road again. I was having an internal war, and it was ripping me apart.
The side that loved Blessing said she was telling me the truth. And the other side that was trying to suppress my past with Abigail and deal with my present of being infertile told me that Blessing was lying.
It was easier to follow that side than to warm up to the idea of finally becoming a father, only to find out that they weren’t mine, just like with Abigail.
“I was trying to protect myself, Blessing. It was a fucked up way of doing it, but that’s the truth. That’s why I got back with Sasha. She was safe, and in my mind, she was someone who never lied to me.”
“I’m sorry for what you went through, Creed, I really am. But, I’m not that girl. You could have come to me and told me you had doubts, and I would have gladly given you a test. That’s all I wanted.”
Hearing that made me feel like the fool I was, but it was done.
“I’m sorry, Blessing.”
“I just want the test done, Creed. That’s all I want from you. Can we do that, please?”
Her response was cold, and I couldn’t even blame her because I did this shit and hardened her heart to me. I had no one to blame but myself. I could have done better, and I should have. I should have let go of my past instead of taking it out on Blessing.
I allowed my anger to spill over and make the mess that we were in. There were no words that I could use to let her know how sorry I was. There was only one thing I could do.
“Sure, let’s do it.”
Amario Augustus

That morning
“A mario? Who the fuck is that?”
Was that my name?
I had never been so confused in my life. To wake up in the hospital and not know why was one thing. But as I sat in my thoughts before this strange woman walked in, I couldn’t for the life of me remember who the fuck I was.
I mean, I straight didn’t know my name, age, what the fuck I looked like, nothing!
What the fuck was going on with me? And why the fuck did I have two bitches calling me baby?
I looked up at this woman again, and I must admit, she was fine as fuck! My dick immediately stood up as I took in her beautiful features. She was turning me the fuck on, and the way she was standing there, mouth wide open wasn’t helping.
From the way my body reacted, I knew she had to be someone I was definitely fucking because baby girl had me feening, and I didn’t even know who she was. But why the hell did two women walk in acting like I was theirs?
I may not know who I wa