Lost and Found Me

Lai-Meng Lee

Description

Do you always feel something is "not right" about your relationship, while at the same time you are not sure what is really not right, and it's hard to describe to anyone else? Do you always feel that you are not being appreciated no matter how much you contribute to your relationship? Do you always feel that you just cannot get it right no matter what you try? Lost and Found Me will share with you real-life experiences from real people and will: * help you understand you are not alone, * help you recognize and acknowledge what is going on in your life experiences, * help you take back your personal power, * help you make a positive change in your life experience, * help you focus the right energy on the right person, * help you realize life is all about decision-making, * guide you on how to walk toward the light.

Sujets

• Popular psychology

Informations

• Publié par: Austin Macauley Publishers LLC
• Date de parution: 29 mai 2020
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9781645367307
• Langue: English

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Lost and Found Me
A Married Life Between An Empath and A Narcissist. How to Walk Towards the Light.
Lai-Meng Lee
Austin Macauley Publishers
2020-06-30
Lost and Found Me About The Author Dedication Copyright Information © Acknowledgment Author’s Note Introduction Tuesday – 12th December 2017 Chapter One The History – How it Started Personal View He Refused to Talk to My Parents. The other side of Alistair Cut-throat, sharp, and hurtful words Imposing fear on me His true colors came out more after we were married. Missed the clues I think he had some unresolved childhood pain His mother did like me. Judging me It’s just in your mind. It’s not that cold. Lifting big and heavy items Undermine what I say A letter to Jessica Chapter Two My Early Experiences Little One is My Name Instant message This is Just Wrong. My GP was concerned about me. Huge Demand No Empathy Nobody to talk to A lesson learned I thought your head was in the toilet. It’s really hard to explain. Talk to a GOOD , well-trained professional He just ignored me when I cried. Walking on the eggshell There was no straight line. It was always my fault. I was not allowed to speak my mind. Birthday dinner Silent treatment – it was getting more often. Chapter Three Time to Focus on the Right Person – ME VIOLENCE IS A CHOICE. LM I AM changing. What is going on in my life? Understand and Acknowledge Write It Down Commitment and Determination Clear your mind. Set healthy boundaries. The change happened Chapter Four HEALING – Body, Mind, and Soul Spiritual Health Chapter Five Awakening Synchronicity & Awakening Let go of people who don’t serve you any good. Don’t be afraid to speak your mind. Do not need approval See through the mask more clearly. Don’t worry. Just go with the flow. Hold love and light. Sleep and diet-pattern change Lucid dream Searching for life’s purpose and new life’s direction Beware. Chapter Six Start a New Reality. Self-Love Gratitude Laugh it out. New people Keep going. Chapter Seven
About The Author
Lai-Meng Lee has never dreamed of writing. During the most desperate and intense period of her verbally and psychologically abusive marriage, an inner voice started talking to her and urging her to write a book without further delay. Her life experiences taught her a very important lesson, combining her inner knowing told her she has graduated from the University of THE UNIVERSE. It’s time to share the knowledge learned. She realized psychological abuse is a serious problem, the effects of which are well recognized in many developed countries and the impact is beyond one’s imagination. Hence, she is devoted to helping others and involved in activities for raising awareness.
Dedication
I dedicate this book to my mom and dad, my sister, Louise Lee, my siblings, and their spouses from Kuala Lumpur. Your support and love comforted my soul when I needed it most, especially all those long-distance phone calls that lend me listening ears and kind words, I cannot ask for more. To my nephews and niece, you always bring me joy and laughter that warms my heart when we were together. The thought of you has kept me going and stayed strong. Thank you and love you all.
To my higher self, the inner voice that planted a seed in my head to write a book and kept pushing me moving forward like walking baby steps, slowly but surely. Thank you too.
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Lai-Meng Lee (2020)
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Publisher’s Cataloguing-in-Publication data
Lee, Lai-Meng
Lost and Found Me
ISBN 9781643782607 (Paperback)
ISBN 9781643782614 (Hardback)
ISBN 9781645367307 (ePub e-book)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2020906621
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First Published (2020)
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Acknowledgment
Nicole Tai, from Nicole Tai Photography—a very close friend of mine, a passionate photographer, and an experienced quantity surveyor. I would like to extend my appreciation to your effort in the author’s photo and book cover for Lost and Found Me . I first saw the book cover photo on the website; it captured my eyes immediately with a deep sense of connection. To me, the photo looks and feel like “MAGIC,” with the moon shining out in the dark, it clearly described the story of this book. Thank you.
To the team at Austin Macauley Publishers. From the editor, production department, designer/illustrator, finance department to the marketing department. It was a great experience working with you in an informed and systematic way. Thank you.
Author’s Note
I have tried to recreate events, locales and conversations from my memories of them. In order to maintain their anonymity in some instances, I have changed the names of individuals and places; I may have changed some identifying characteristics and details such as physical properties, occupations and places of residence.
Introduction

Tuesday – 12th December 2017
On another beautiful day in this late summer, I have decided to go to the beach and make full use of the good weather in this evening. Recently, the beach has become my favorite place and I do visits more often, either sitting down or lying down on the same big rock under the warm sunny day, listening to the sea breeze, closing my eyes, and doing my meditation.
No doubt, this is a beautiful part of New Zealand with magnificent mountains and sea view. I love the look of the mountains. It is my favorite and it always takes my breath away, particularly during wintertime!
As I walked towards the beach, I told myself I must take action and write down all the words running in my head without any further delay. I must open up my laptop and continue writing again.
I have been hesitated for far too long, wondering if this is the right thing to do or not. I was worrying that if I published this book, it may hurt someone and/or affect someone, especially in New Zealand, a country with a small population where most people seem to have some kind of connection with one another.
This internal conflict and struggle have been ongoing for a long time. One side of me wanted to protect the people mentioned in this book. It involved a lot of thoughts like, What if I hurt them? At the same time, the little voice in my head kept saying to me, Write a book… Write a book, over and over again.
Not until recently I learned that love and compassion should be extended to myself too, not just to others. I believe in giving love to family, loved ones, and others, but I didn’t really know how to love myself. I thought I did love myself, but I didn’t really know the real meaning and real actions of loving myself.
I was constantly explaining and defending myself without me knowing. I was being controlled and manipulated without me knowing. I was working harder and smarter, getting most problems solved and everything done, but I was still not good enough. I was losing myself without me knowing.
My soul was bleeding deep inside me and slowly dying from inside out without me knowing. The dark energy was covering all over me without me knowing. I was being trapped deeper and deeper without me knowing. My married life has more tears than laughter.
NOW I ask myself, “Is this my true divine calling?” The little voice in my head keeps telling me to write a book. Does it mean writing my story about my learning in life and these experiences are my true purpose in this lifetime? Does it mean I must write this book to share with others to bring more love and light to people?
Am I not listening to my higher self and the angels who desperately give me signs and synchronicity? Am I not following my instinct and the little voice in my head to lead me to where I should go? Do I doubt myself? There are too many question marks in my head. I am still searching for the answers.
Anyway, I have decided that I am taking action now and writing with my guts. It’s not about me anymore; it’s about serving people, for those who were or are still in similar situation like I was or anyone who is experiencing hardship in their life regardless of the triggers, whether the experiences are with their family, friends, workplace or other circumstances. My intention of this book is to send you more love and light.
I want to let you know that you are always loved and guided. You are not alone, even though you might feel lonely or nobody believing in you or understanding you, even though you might think you have nobody to talk to, even though you might feel stuck and/or standing in the middle of the crossroad without knowing which direction you should go,
even though you might feel a sense of being lost, hopeless or of despair, and even though you might think this is the end of the world.
FEAR NOT . All our life experiences now are here for a reason. Slow down and be patient. They will pass when the right time comes.
Take a deep breath in and out. Repeat the deep breathing many times and quiet your mind. You are not alone. Someone out there had exactly the same experiences like yours. You might not know them, but just trust that you are not alone and you never are.
The life experiences we are going through NOW are an opportunity