My Sister, My Bride

Allan Wargon

Description

Inspired by the world's supreme love poem, this account of loneliness and love, passion, joy, gratitude, illusion, despair, disagreement, quarrel, parting and concord expresses all the shades of feeling between a man and the mercurial woman he is mad about.

In a style both lucid and lyric, with a richness of sight and sound befitting the biblical psalms, this highly original story makes each mood of the mind and heart suspenseful and revealing. Also informed by philosophical musings about life, nature and the human condition, it is an extraordinary portrait of a tempestuous love affair. It's an absolute delight.

Sujets

• Vie de famille
• Relations familiales
• Romance
• Fiction

Informations

• Publié par: eBookIt.com
• Date de parution: 31 mai 2012
• Nombre de lectures: 1
• EAN13: 9780986567131
• Langue: English

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I am come into my garden, my sister, my bride;
I have gathered my myrrh with my spice;
I have eaten my honeycomb with my honey;
I have drunk my wine with my milk.
Eat, O friends;
Drink, yea,
drink abundantly,
O beloved!
 
 
The Bible: The Song of Songs
 


 
 
MY SISTER,
MY BRIDE
 


 
 
MY SISTER,
MY BRIDE
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ALLAN WARGON
 
 

PIED PIPER
BOOKS
 


Copyright © 2012 by Allan Wargon
 
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Wargon, Allan
MY SISTER, MY BRIDE
Poem
 
ISBN 978-0-9865671-3-1
 
Type design: Gordon Robertson
Cover: Sholom Wargon and Nancy Franklin
Biblical verse reprinted by courtesy of The Jewish Publication Society of America, from the Holy Scriptures according to the Masoretic text, 1917 edition.
 
First published in hard cover by Somerville House Publishing as a Patrick Crean book
 
Ebook published by Pied Piper Books
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A YEAR ALONE
 

There’s a path from the far side of the bridge
to the little cabin where I write
that for the past week I’ve had to walk with care
because of the violets that have appeared in it.
The woods are gently carpeted with them now,
mauve and yellow and white, their delicate heads
set off by the pretty, frilled, usually heart-shaped leaves.
If on a desert island I could have only two flowers
my second choice would be the violet,
to remind me of all that is graceful, simple, and pure.
My first choice would be the rose; for the rose —
like the Bible — is everything.

Although I’ve made the farm a wildlife sanctuary,
within its boundaries the natural cycle of life,
unsparing of the weak and unwary, goes on undisturbed.
At noon today the dogs caught a groundhog behind the house;
and then one of the barn cats, not yet fully grown,
and with a face so innocent you’d think its owner incapable
of hurting even a mouse, brought into the stable a partridge,
a bird almost as big as itself, and one that is prized by gourmets.
Later that afternoon I found a morel, a mushroom that is to this terrain what the truffle is to France.
So we all ate well.
Along with my morel, which I browned lightly in butter
and served myself as a small separate dish,
I had my daily salad of dandelion leaves;
they are smooth and tasty at this time of year.
There’s an abundance of edible wild plants within yards of this house,
but I don’t have time to gather and prepare them;
so I confine myself to the greens that grow outside the kitchen door,
and they fill in nicely until the first lettuce comes from the garden.

Each spring there’s a new crop of stones.
Pushed up by frost from the rocky subsoil, then tiller mixed
with the fine dark loam, they are velvety stones;
they caress my hands as I lob them into the garden lane,
where over the years I’ve built up a hard-packed, almost-level road.
That’s a rare thing in this narrow V-shaped valley,
with its steep, tree-covered slopes, which open only to the south — to the sun, and sometimes to a warm wind
when one manages to ride in on the swift, north-flowing stream.
All other winds are solidly shut out; in winter, storms rage overhead
while down below, where the buildings are, it’s often sunny and still.
The buildings are clustered beside or near the water;
the fields roll out above, on the high plateau through which the river,
probably preceded by a glacier, once cut, and still cuts, its way.
Around the fields the dense hardwood forest is filled with woodland life,
and the spring-fed rollicking river is clean and full of fish.
In this blessed realm I’m a solitary servant;
I pay the taxes and mend the wear and tear.

It’s good being alone with my thoughts; it’s what I wanted.
But my empty bed, the silent house, the lack of female smells
leave a dull yearning. Before coming here
I knew at the same time three beautiful women,
and each charged and charmed the air, and made eating a divine delight;
but I grew weary of their sighs and silent reproaches,
of dark envy underlying even the ecstatic hours,
of being burdened by my own tenacious guilt.
I had been much with people,
they had crowded my days and occupied my nights;
my spirit craved a rest. The years here have been refreshing,
but a shared life seems behind me now.
I seldom meet women anymore, and those I’m drawn to
are always already married. Besides, though I need beauty and charm
I’d like as well someone who understands my roots,
and who can excite my soul.

She’s very often in my dreams,
that imagined companion I might never know.
Without her I doubt that I would bare these thoughts,
or bother phrasing the reports of eyes and nose and ears.
And though it’s a kind of folly, and absurd,
some conscious self-delusion helps to keep me balanced here.
Taste, for instance of food, is enhanced if I make believe it’s shared,
and the touch of anything I can fantasize as being of skin.
And when there’s beauty so acute it hurts,
or fleeting magic, or tenderness that wants to overflow,
then I need her most, and instantly she’s there,
formless and faceless, of course, but with, I feel,
a shrewd understanding in her look, and, it follows,
the warning of a mocking smile around her mouth.

Behind the house, alongside the river, ending at a dam
that forms a swimming pool some ten feet deep with rock bottom and sides,
there’s a second garden that retains a hint of formality,
though it’s been neglected for the past two or three years.
The dam, which was opened for repair and the adding of an automatic gate,
was never closed because I ran out of money and didn’t buy the thing,
and since then the river has flowed at its natural level.
The flower beds have lost their definition and become crowded with weeds,
the borders are ragged, and under some of the trees
there lies a carpet of last autumn’s leaves.
I laid out this garden in a burst of baronial pride,
which soon faded, and from that time on I’ve done little in it,
except to prune a few trees that produce particularly tangy apples.
This afternoon I went back there to get a clump of peony
for a sunny space beside the front door of the house,
and found, in the center of the main bed,
a cluster of lovely tulips I had forgotten about.
They were erect and fresh from the shower this morning,
their svelte heads spangled with rain drops,
and their petals — white, edged with shocking pink —
were demurely, almost provocatively, closed.
When I was digging the peonies I suddenly saw a morel.
It was in the grass only a few feet away. Then I saw another,
and another, and two more — six, eight, eleven, fifteen —
the grass under the apple trees was dotted with morels!
Three weeks ago I had been elated to find a single one,
and all the time there had been a glut of them,
only twenty yards from the kitchen door.
I picked two handfuls, but alas, they were all over-ripe.
Another person, less busy than I, would surely have seen them.

Even in daylight I now think of her,
noticing her by the water or among the trees,
or going uphill, or walking freely in the fields.
Sometimes she watches while I work, and talks with me,
and once I was quite startled by her as I shaved,
and cut myself, and both of us, after our surprise, laughed heartily.
She charms me; whether she’s blonde or brown, black, auburn or gray,
I’m moved by her: for moments she almost lifts me from myself.
Almost. Because I know it’s need that sees her through my eyes,
and loneliness that gives her such vivacity and wit,
and despair, at least a bit, that keeps me from presuming her love.
But never mind, I sublimate by using my surroundings,
which brings other pleasures — discovery, insight, amusement,
and often, encouragingly, even joy.

Such feathered splendor this spring —
I don’t remember ever seeing so many birds, or in such profusion of color.
Creamy birds that look as if they’d just bathed in milk,
and others that are pale lemon-yellow shading to butterscotch;
and then those streaks of sunshine, the bright goldfinches,
or wild canaries as most people call them.
Birds the soft color of unpainted Florida oranges;
others the pale copper of autumn leaves framed by wings like brown earth,
and of course the comfortable red-brown breasts of robins.
And scarlet. Yesterday a tanager sat in full sunlight
on a willow branch over the pond; I set down what I was carrying,
ordered the dogs to stay put, and moved closer for a better look— but the bird noticed and flew off to hide among the cedars
on the other bank. Then there are rose-breasted grosbeaks,
and the garish red crest on the head of the idiot woodpecker
who attacks the metal downspouts on the barn,
surely knowing by now that such trees yield no grubs,
but enjoying the resounding tat-tat-tat-tat his bill makes.
Some mornings when I go out there are mallards on the pond,
wearing their collars of iridescent green,
and any day now — though I haven’t seen one yet this year —
a moving blur will hover for an instant and I’ll have a glimpse
of the shimmering, evanescent green of the hummingbird.
And there are plenty of bluish birds:
jays and kingfishers are always darting around the house,
a heron occasionally visits the pond,
and once in a while — though rarely — I see the shy bluebird,
which is a color like the clearest blue of sky and water