Don't Count Me Out Yet

Deshon J. Porter

Description

Everyone has a story to share in there own way – am I the last of the Prince Charmings? I got out of deep lack and homelessness and still am unable to find love. This is a way for me to share my story with single ladies and for those who want to be inspired to dream again to have hope again even when you are down and out. You are never to be counted out. You have work to do.

Sujets

• Poetry

Informations

• Publié par: eBookIt.com
• Date de parution: 21 février 2013
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9781456600266
• Langue: English

Extrait

Don't Count Me Out Yet
 
by
Deshon Porter
AKA
Prince Big D
 
Copyright 2010 Deshon Porter,
All rights reserved.
 
Published for the Internet by eBookIt.com
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ISBN-13: 978-1-4566-0026-6
 
No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means including information storage and retrieval systems, without permission in writing from the author. The only exception is by a reviewer, who may quote short excerpts in a review.
 
 


Dedication
 
This book is dedicated to all the single ladies. I do have a lot to offer. Beauty is found within.
 
To my best friend Tyrone Jackson, for believing in me and telling me to never give up.
 
To my new Disney family for giving me real hope after a very bad storm in my life.
 
To Jesus Christ, still Lord in my life, but suffering has got to go.
 
To all those who thought I would never get this far: Thank you.
 
Never give up! Never quit.
 
 


Table of Contents
 
 
Foreword: Everyone Has a Story to Share
 
Chapter 1 - Rejected Again?
 
Chapter 2 - The Not So Good Life
 
Chapter 3 - My Entertainment Life
 
Chapter 4 - How Did I Survive That?
 
Chapter 5 - A Good Choice That I Made
 
Chapter 6: Share Your Own Story (An Interactive Chapter)
 
Afterword
 
Appendix 1 – Deshon Porter’s Dating Profile
 
Appendix 2 – Deshon’s Poems & Songs: Our Wedding Day, You Are Not Alone, You Are My Sweet Love
 
About The Author
 
Author’s Contact Information
 


Foreword
 
Everyone Has a Story to Share
 
 
Everyone has a story to share. Share your story!
 
Life is a story and everyone has a part to play. Just as in the movies, things happen in life, both good and bad. Life will not always be easy. If you believe otherwise, I’m sorry to shatter the myth.
 
Even though life is not easy, you can be happy all the time, despite your circumstances. How is it that even if you are stuck in a traffic jam, late for work, you can still be happy? How can you be alone on a Friday night, while others are out having a good time, and still be happy?
 
We all have feelings inside of us, and sometimes it all becomes too much, and we just have to let them out. When somebody asks you how you are doing, what do you say? You may feel happy, sad, angry, or depressed, but if you don’t share honestly about your feelings, you can miss the opportunity to gain support and encouragement. For many of us, we might start out saying, for example, “I am doing well…”, and then quickly follow it up with the “but”. As in, “But….I missed my bus, and I am late for work.” How can you feel happy about being late for work? Sometimes you have to express what you feel, so that someone can offer you a helping hand. If the other person doesn’t know you are sad, angry or otherwise hurting, they will not know you are in need.
 
It works in a similar way with a story. You probably have dreams and goals in your life, and in your story. I want to encourage you to share those dreams and goals with someone who believes in you and what you can achieve. If you are dating someone and you want a long-term relationship leading to marriage, it is important to tell that person what the relationship means to you, and that you would like to spend the rest of your life with him or her. There is a good chance that they will believe you.
 
I am still in college, and decided to write this book for several reasons. One reason is that I want to go “on the record” about who I am and what I stand for. I consider myself romantic, caring, and passionate about finding the lady that I will love for the rest of my life. I am also passionate about the things that I love to do.
 
Another reason I wrote this book is because I want to share it with single ladies. To single ladies: I want you to read this book because I am looking for a wife who will love me for who I am.
 
If you have a passion to share your story, I hope you will decide to write it, and not quit until it is finished.
 
If you have a passion for something, share it with the world. If you have a passion for preaching the Gospel, for example, do that. If you are a singer, an actor, or are self-employed, then by goodness, pursue it with passion, and tell the world your story.
 
For so long, I felt I wanted to share my story with the world. I wanted to write a book. But I have to tell you, I thought I had to wait until all of my dreams came true. I wanted to leave the bad times out of my book, and focus only on the positive. But God had other plans for this book.
 
First, he told me to write this book now and not to wait until my dreams come true before I put pen to paper. He told me I could always update my book. I listened and said “yes” to God.
 
Writing my story meant facing my story. It meant facing the reality of what I’ve been through, and of where I am in life right now. I hate talking about the bad things that have happened in my life. I was in the hospital sick for a week and no one came to see me. I walked away from a train accident on the way home from school. I do not like talking about failed relationships and the hurt of rejection. I almost didn’t think I would make it through writing the first chapter. The emotion was so raw, I could only write in short bursts, before the pain became unbearable, and I needed to walk away and take a break.
 
Some people will think I am nuts for going ahead and writing this story when none of my dreams have come true yet. I even had another name for this book. It was going to be called The Big D Story . But once again, God had other plans. So I am obeying his plans for this book by not only sharing my own story, but also inspiring others to write their own book, to share their own story with the world. Who knows, if you dare to share your story, people may relate to it, and want to hear more from you!
 
It seems almost everyone around me has someone to love. For me, yes I have friends. But what is missing is a lady in my life who will be there for me, who will love me for me whether I am sick or well rich or poor. When I find her, I will never ever let her go! Ever!
 
Chapter 1 - Rejected Again?
 
I am thirty-six years old. I have never been married and do not have any children. Why? Too many rejections to count. Moreover, it become real to me that I have been more a friend to a lady than a lover. When I go out into town, it hurts me really deep inside to know that there are happy couples all around me. Some of them are dating, others have been married for many years. And there I am, alone, as if dating myself. It’s no fun at all.
 
I always thought that you just had to be kind, caring and loving to find a girlfriend. Boy was I wrong! Every lady that I have liked--every last one one of them--is now just a friend that I talk to. It is no wonder I have been called the last prince charming. Ladies, just to let you know, rejections do hurt like a knife that cuts right through the heart. That is why it takes time for me to try again with another princess, for fear of rejection. Now you will get to know what it is like and how a guy feels when he is rejected by a lady that he likes. Why do I get rejected all the time? Where is my soon-to-be wife? I am no way in hell going to be single forever! I want a family. I want someone to love me for who I am, not for what I do or do not have. I am a winner, ladies. No, I am not a loser. You will all soon see when my dreams come true.
 
[CURTAIN]
 
I was far from home. I told her I didn’t have a wife or girlfriend. I came here alone. I did not see it coming at all. It took place at a hosptal in Florida. I will tell you what I tried to do to win her love, how I lost it, and how bad it felt. Take a deep breath, this is going to hurt.
 
When I lived in New Jersey (I was born in Newark), I tried to date so that I could eventually marry and have a family. There was one lady that I met and liked very much. We met at a group called The Turn Around Foundation. I miss those the good people from that group. We would help turn a frown into a smile at facilities like nursing homes and mental hospitals. Anyway, the lady’s name was Sara. She was beautiful, just like all the ladies that I try to date. I look for beauty from within. She had light skin, a nice smil, gold hair, and a zest for life. We shared a part together on a TV show for the Turn Around Foundation. We went on three or four dates. Sh lived in Dover, New Jersey. She even came to a TV show taping that I did in New York City. We had lunch, then played video games before I headed back to Newark.
 
One day we were coming from an outing with the group and then --I will never forget it, it was like yesterday-- she pulled me to the side and said that we could not see each other anymore, but only be friends. I had even sung a song to her.