In My Own Words

Damion J. Chandler

Description

In My Own Words unravels the unspoken trials and triumphs Chandler has faced in the last decade.
This collection captures a colorful picture of damage, despair, passion, and restoration. Commencing with heartbreaking lows and enticing fantasies to family homages and the art of peaceful self-healing. Opening the book with “Heartbreaks & Heartaches” and concluding with “Happiness & Healing” gives you a transparent view of the process from the beginning, the end and everything in between. In My Own Words is an unapologetic invitation to his emotions, his words and ultimately his world.

Sujets

• Emotions (álbum)
• Self-healing
• Word
• Trial (disambiguation)
• Emotion
• Poetry
• Words
• Collection
• Family
• Emotions

Informations

• Publié par: AuthorHouse
• Date de parution: 29 août 2022
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9781665564724
• Langue: English

Extrait

IN MY OWN WORDS
A Collection of Poems
DAMION J. CHANDLER


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Published by AuthorHouse 07/25/2022
 
ISBN: 978-1-6655-6473-1 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-6655-6474-8 (hc)
ISBN: 978-1-6655-6472-4 (e)
 
 
 
 
 
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Contents
PART I: Heartbreak & Heartaches
1Epic Fucking Love Story
2He’s Just A Man
3In The Dark
4Bomb
5Don’t Call Me Beautiful
6You’re Going To Need Me
7Brave
8A Letter To My Ex’s
9Not Again
10I Was Wrong
11Remories
12Until We Meet Again
13I Lost
14The Heartbroken Deed
15Killing Me
16Hurts Like Hell
17Bleeding
18Not Another Love Poem
19Suffer From Loneliness
20Silent Heartbreak
21The Road Not Taken
22Bring On The Heartbreak
23Plead The Fifth
24Pay Attention
25White Lie
26I Don’t Want To See You Happy
27Playing Games
PART II: Romance & Rendezvous
1Til’ The Morning
2South Of The Border
3Secret Escape
4All The Boys
5Saturday Night
6Simply True Love
7The Right One
8Bad Things
9I Don’t Care
10In Your Paradise
11Worth The Risk
12The Secret
13Fate Whispers
14By The Fence
15Hold The Torch
16,000 Ways
17Elevator Suite
18A Place Called Forever
19Sun Bath
20Never See You Again
21If Only
22The Love I Have You
23Situationships
24Lucky
25Outer Space
26Arrest Me
27Drunk Conversations
PART III: Family, Friends & Fables
1Who’s Broken Now?
2Welcome Home
3Hold On
4Oh What A Woman
5Bestfriend
6I Just Call You Mom
7Beginning Truth
8So-Called Friends
9Little Big Sister
10Power Of 3
PART IV: Healing & Happiness
1Superhero
2Love
3Whisper In The Wind
4A Promise To Myself
5Liberation
6Peace Be With You
7Becoming Me
8A Purchased Heart
9Echo
10Listening To The Wind
11Change Your Life
12Stand Next To You
13He Say, She Say
14Garden
15A Long Talk

Dedicated to:
Jessie Mae Butler
Angela “Angie” Chandler-Begley
Tecoria “Coco” Benson
Stephanie “Tywxx” Daniels
 
 
“If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them.”
-The Crow
PART I
Heartbreak & Heartaches
“Who needs a heart when a heart can be broken?”
-Tina Turner
Epic Fucking Love Story
Romeo and Juliet They fell in love When they first met And for some silly reason That was the image I wanted to set But that was a different place In a different time So why did I anticipate On trying to reincarnate A love that didn’t even cross the line But you were the only one I wanted All those sacred moments Now my memory is haunted Of what was supposed to be Our epic fucking love story I was ready to tell everybody About what we made it through But we didn’t even come close to what I thought it was So now, what is the use It isn’t how it used be There’s no sparkle in your eye When you look at me Even when all the pain I had You took from me I still feel something wrong You already told me some things aren’t the same But I didn’t know that Everything would change We couldn’t remain Cause we didn’t maintain The passion that we had Now who’s to blame No Cinderella No happily ever after No riding off into the sunset together I’ve accepted that fact that were done We’re foolishly giving up So I guess I’ll never get to tell our Epic fucking love story Because there isn’t one…
He’s Just A Man
You don’t call me I don’t call you I get mad because I would hope that you’d want to But then I remember that we are only just friends Friends who laugh at each other’s jokes To give me a lending hand When I need it But I think I give you too much praise More than what your given me And lord knows I don’t want to set you free But I got to I don’t want to But I’m tired of wondering about all the things we could be I would go against the pain Stand out in the rain Just to know that you’d be okay If somebody hurts you I’m shooting to kill I think I’ve been better to you And any woman has or ever will But you’re a man And I’m a man So I guess that’s what you don’t understand And I constantly hold out my hand And scream that you’re not alone All those heart to heart moments And long nights on the phone It just pisses me off When I sit and realize that the chicks you like Don’t even treat you right But there I am When it all goes wrong Tell me about it You know I’ll listen
I even grab the tools
To prepare for the fixing But then I remember You’re a man And I’m a man And that’s something My heart refuses to grasp Or in other words It doesn’t care Cause you’re the one I call on When I need someone there But when I need a little more than that You get scared And the skepticism I can’t bear I’ve kept this from you I didn’t want you to know But now my feelings are starting
To fiercely show But you’re just a man And I’m a man But you know I’m your biggest fan But I know it’ll never be And that what saddens me For two people Who clearly love each other Don’t want to face the facts That I’m a man and he’s a man And that we love one another Beyond what we lack
In The Dark
I had a dream last night That you came back to me Like you never left But then I woke up And realize you’re really gone And it’s like a slow death I see your face is the mist I hear your whisper of a voice And I’m trying to move on But sometimes I feel like that’s not a choice I want to touch your face Kiss your lips I want to shine in your eyes Like a solar eclipse They say if its real You’ll come back But what if you never do I try to listen to my heart Instead of facing the facts That I’m painfully missing you I try to think I deserve more Somebody who’ll open up that door For me to leave and forget about you I tried to wrapped my brain around your departure But I’ve made excuse after excuse This a desperation to See you again Whether were holding hands Or just friends I want to touch your soul Your body I want to hold And never let go But you’re gone And every plan I have Goes wrong All the memories Of you and me Are starting to feel ghost Like they never happened I feel like I’m trapped And I can’t break out Because of this hold Come back to me And unlock these chains You’ve put on my heart Come and set me free I don’t want to leave But I’d rather be on and gone Instead of sitting missing you Alone in the dark Its so cold without you No sunlight at all Now even if I take a leap At the bottom there’s no one to
Catch me when I fall Can you feel my screams Do you hear my call? It’s still a mystery Because through it all I’m still sitting here in the dark
Bomb
My heart has made it
To the front line
And it’s about to explode
For the guys that try
To ignite it
Until it blows
It’s no question
That my trust is weary
Or why my love is so cold
And maybe I might be
Holding on to the past
A little too lightly
But I just try to be
Cautiously slow
But It never seems to work out
Because things get out of control
My heart is an explosive
And my beats aren’t calm
I’m just a walking
Talking
Ticking
Bomb
Don’t Call Me Beautiful
Pain
Rage
And anger
All thrive inside me
After all these years
You still can lie to me
My face could be a mess
Tears sprinting to my chest
And just to cover up your wrongs
You just tell me I’m beautiful
Knowing that I’m in the worst state
And every day I suffer more pain
From all your gimmicks and games
I don’t understand what went wrong
I strengthen the softness in my eyes
Too help me stay strong
“You’re sorry”
You’ve said it a million times
Right after telling a million lies
But you don’t care
You just call me beautiful
With a lustful stare
It doesn’t faze you
How I’m feeling
It doesn’t bother you if I’m hurt
As long as I shine like a diamond
You wouldn’t care if
I reflected dirt
To cover up your mistakes
Protecting your secrets
You’re taking to the grave
You use your manipulative charm
Then find a way to deceive
But then telling me “oh beautiful it’s not what it seems”
Hurt me, you have
Lied to me, you’ve
done
Break my heart...
Blacken my soul
But whatever you do
Don’t call me beautiful
You’re Going To Need Me
I was your light in the darkest times I was your tissue when your eyes would cry I assured you I’d always be there But lately I’ve been getting the feeling That you don’t care If you don’t, please tell me So I can stop caring too I thought everything was good I thought we were cool But I guess you’re feeling Some type of way You go on acting as if Nothing is wrong So I jus