This Isn't Love

Kale Thomas

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Sujets

• Relationship
• Poetry
• Love
• Life

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• Publié par: Xlibris US
• Date de parution: 12 décembre 2022
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9781669852681
• Langue: English

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This Isn’t Love
 
 
 
 
 
 
Kale Thomas
 
 
Copyright © 2023 by Kale Thomas.
 
ISBN:
Softcover
978-1-6698-5267-4

eBook
978-1-6698-5268-1
 
 
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Rev. date: 12/12/2022
 
 
 
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Contents
this isn’t love
Part 1
limbo
the door
cry
who am i
still numb
substances
apologies
something you always and never knew
lies
“i love you”
you
the hands are the kindest part about you
the ending
Part 2
a long time ago
no longer a thought at the front of my mind
forgive and forget is not possible
suspicions
i’d prefer that you didn’t talk about me but if you do
thank you for nothing
give me a reason
still hurting
damaged goods
it only gets worse
puzzle pieces
broken
burden
with and without you
there are times
god i hate you but god i love him
Part 3
to my first real love
he’s who i’ve been waiting for
i don’t enjoy crying
i’m healing
the one
love began with the letter L
going to sleep
i trust him
perfect
selfish
stressed out
nothingness
my mind is racing
red flags
sinking ships
i still struggle
 
 
 
 
 
 
This book is dedicated to Caleb White and Piper Stathakis, thank you both for everything you’ve done for me. You’re the most incredible and strong people I know.
this isn’t love
there are different types of love in this world
some love for the sole purpose of being loved
some for the feeling they get when they see the other person smile
some for the sweet satisfaction that someone else sees them for who they are
one person could love being loved
and the other can just love for the purpose of needing someone in their life
typically
there are many other types of love
like the toxic love that attracts so many of us me included
a love that makes you feel seen and heard but also ignored and painted over
many people have different types of love in the same relationship people with different types of love fall together which causes break ups
arguments
abuse
physical or emotional
these types of love are written about
but more so
they’re experienced
the toxic love that attracts almost every person
is the love that makes you feel so overwhelmed by any specific feeling that it becomes the only element you experience
 
completely absorbed by hate and love in the same entity
there’s no telling how painful it can be
it can hurt to the point that you cry every night before you go to sleep but in the morning they’re the only person you want to talk to
this type of love can make you feel suffocated and gasping for air but it can also be beautiful in moments
just as any other variety of love
it hurts in the end now i’ve been through many archetypes of love
but i have to say
leaving my emotionally abusive relationship
made me feel free
it made me lose myself in the beginning and i am still struggling to find myself
again
where my personal issues where completely ignored
and even demonized by my partner
i begun to think of myself as a horrible person
even though i’ve never done something inherently horrible to another person as a
teenager
i felt like the world around me didn’t deserve to have an evil force like me walking
the streets
but i stayed in this relationship
and it tore me down
ripping at my heart every second
taking a piece of me with every strip it tore from me
and the longer i stayed the more i realized
i couldn’t stay forever
it would kill me
even though he didn’t hit me
and in person he was actually really kind
but we still only saw each other once a week
and the rest of the time
he tortured me mentally
he told me that i shouldn’t lie to him
when i talked about not actually being as okay as i said i was because inside i was screaming at myself to get out
i needed to get out
but i still stayed
until we almost reached a year and a half together
when i ended the affair
he asked me to not start dating someone else
because i had told him i needed to work on myself
he said it would be hypocritical of me
and that it would hurt him
so i shouldn’t do it
two days later i downloaded tinder
i figured i can’t hurt him if i sleep with random people to get over him
so that i can actually work on