Immigrant to the Top of the World

B.B

Description

The book tells her the story from birth, until she left New York City at 36. She was an all A student, a math genius, attended Sarah Lawrence College, graduated from CCNY with a film, and video production degree. She started the life of party in high school, in downtown Manhattan, kept partying hardcore until she left New York City. She met her long time partner, M at age of 22, and has been famous since she was young. Lots of songs, and movies are about her in Hollywood. Rappers raps about her, pop stars, boy bands sing about her, characters, scenes, music videos, films were inspired by her.

Sujets

• Biography
• Memoir
• Autobiography

Informations

• Publié par: Partridge Publishing Singapore
• Date de parution: 08 mai 2023
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9781543774009
• Langue: English

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Immigrant TO THE TOP OF THE World
 
MEMOIR BY THE BIGGEST MUSE IN HISTORY
 
 
 
B.B
 
 
 

 
Copyright © 2023 by B.B.
 
ISBN:
Softcover
978-1-5437-7399-6

eBook
978-1-5437-7400-9

 
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CONTENTS
Introduction
Chapter 1Childhood
Chapter 2Coming to America, New York City!
Chapter 3High school in Manhattan
Chapter 4College
Chapter 5Moving back to Manhattan
Chapter 6Moving to Downtown Manhattan
Chapter 7Marc
Chapter 8The loft
Chapter 9Boy, and music video
Chapter 10Just being stupid again
Chapter 11Gang bang happened
Chapter 12After
Chapter 13Goodbye New York City
Chapter 14Mental illness, and addiction
Conclusion: Legend continues
INTRODUCTION
B ehind every great invention, song, movie, art, there is a muse. That’s me! I’m a muse to countless things in this world. Inventors, technology geeks, song writers, pop stars, film directors, producers, actors, etc are inspired by me daily. In Greek mythology, muse was the goddess of the arts and sciences! There are so many things I don’t know about that I inspired in this world. That’s ok too. As long as I know that I am the biggest muse ever in history. What is so special about me? That, I don’t quite know myself! So I am humble. But I am a unique person, for sure. Pop stars called me “different”, the song goes, “No matter how different, you’re beautiful.”, friends have called me “Quirky, and different”. I’m definitely a quirky, crazy, weirdo artist. Yes, I am an artist, I notice things…but doesn’t anyone?? And also I may be quite beautiful, the pop song goes, “I’m in love with the shape of you”, “She gotta pretty like that, I never seen anything like that”. I like making art, my life itself is an art, and people watch it everyday. I am also quite intelligent? I am bilingual (Japanese is my native tongue, and English is my second language), and speak both languages without apparent accents, both languages fluently, and was an A student from elementary school to high school, and graduated from college. I may be a genius, or very intelligent or something. The pop song goes, “If it’s cool, I wanna get inside your brain”. My intellect had something to do with me being famous as well? Also I can be heinous. I would’ve been dead if I wasn’t sharp, one doctor said. Two doctors said that I am “A little bit dumb/superficial”. My ex therapist said, “drugs, and alcohol saved me”. Maybe he meant my dumbness saved me? Or just the meaning is straight up? I am still trying to figure out the meaning, I like dumb things, that’s true. Like pissing in front of someone’s door steps, or pissing from the second floor to the ground at people, or snatching people’s wallets at a bar, or prank calling people. Shit like that. I’m sure there are haters towards me, or something like that, or maybe they think I’m just a fool, but the truth is, one doctor said, “She’s really smart.” It’s interesting when an intelligent person do dumb, stupid things. Maybe that whole thing is all, and all interesting, and people are inspired by me. Something about me inspires people to invent, write songs, make films, make art, it’s unstoppable, and there are so many, many things that I have inspired. People are watching me everyday, and getting ideas! But the truth is that it could’ve been anyone. Don’t get me wrong, I am quirky, different, very intelligent, good looking enough to make it in this world, but they chose me out of the blue. Thus I am writing this memoir to maybe give some tips on how to make it in Hollywood, and the world of art. It definitely could be YOU! I’m the biggest muse ever in history! This is me, and how I think. And maybe YOU will be the next the biggest muse ever in history!
I think I’m famous. In fact, I think I really am famous. Maybe I am the only one who doesn’t know that I’m famous. I may be the most famous normal person in the world. I am an artist, an outside artist, an actress, and a model. In fact, I just realized a year ago or so that I am maybe famous. I was drugged up, famous or famous or not I’m a total fuck up, I had potential to be a proper person but I destroyed it with my own hands. My friend called me a “Professional partier, a professional loser.” I just wanted to share my life story, because I thought It may be quite an entertainer, and also I thought I could help others who suffer from alcohol, drugs, and sex addiction, because I suffer from that disease as well. Also I am bipolar, and ADHD, and thought that sharing my story would somehow help people who suffer from mental illness. And lastly, I wanted to share my story as a woman, and help others who suffer from sexual assaults, as a survivor. But all and all, this is entertainment. For me, this is a self discovery process. And that’s the theme of this book, this book I write as entertainment for others, but for me, this book is a self discovery. I want you to enjoy what a fool I was in my twenties, thirties, being famous in New York City. I myself am not that into Hollywood’s gossip, and stay busy doing other things. I want you to be entertained by this story and forget about problems in your daily life! Yes, yes, some may think I’m just a lab rat for Hollywood, like the film “Truman show”, That’s ok too. Pop stars sing about me, boy bands sing about me, rappers rap about me, there are movies, and roles inspired by me in Hollywood. This is my own voice, and no one else’s. To be honest, I got fucked over a lot, beaten up mentally, and physically a lot, but I survived! I am alive…I’ve been chewed up, and spat out but I am alive! I think life is a gift, and I am celebrating my life by sharing my life story. I think everyone shall share their life stories! I became part of Hollywood, and the grand Art World. I honestly don’t know why boybands, pop stars, rap stars sing about me, and there are movies, and roles inspired by me. What is it about me? I am not the most beautiful woman in the world. Or am I? I don’t know. But so many pop stars, boy bands, rap stars, sing, and rap about me in not only one song, but a lot of songs. It’s not my beauty, it must be my personality, and brain. There are many films, music videos, characters, scenes, inspired by my own characteristics. There is a life long movie about me, I am watched 24/7 by certain people. Like some boy band, and pop stars say in their music, “I’m watching you everyday”. I have no privacy, but I guess I’m safe? A rapper raps, “you know how many hot bitches I own.” Maybe I’m one of the hot bitches they own. I don’t know. I made it somehow In this world of art, with my beauty, quirk, and some New York street smart? My career has been led by an unknown big shot art manager, and he/she led me to M, my long term partner, and my manager/patron? Who knows, I was talking to my English student recently, and my manager might as well be Japanese!
Recently for my 40 th birthday celebration, I went to Kenya to see all the cute animals. The staff danced, and sang traditional Kenyan songs, and brought me a pink cake (my favorite color pink!), and candles. They said, “Thank you for choosing this lodge out of all the lodges in Masai Mara.” There were only two couples in the dining room. When the celebration was done, and when I finished eating, I stood up to leave. One guy who was curious about who I was, looked at my face, and spat out his food with “Ah!”. Then in the morning, when I was sitting down for breakfast, he stood in the distance in front of me, put his hand on his chin, looked down, and stared down. He was mocking the world on the top who were looking down on me, and observing me everyday. His wife told him to stop, and then he stopped. I should’ve looked back with a glare at him after he did that! I am slow, my reactions are slow. I’m not sure how he interpreted that I didn’t glare at him, I realized that this couple was speaking Spanish on the table at dinner. He could’ve been from Europe, or South America. That’s when I realized that I am an internationally famous person! He spat out his food, when he saw my face at dinner, and at breakfast, he mocked me, like I am a famous person, and obviously, he was from Europe or South America. He spoke Spanish. So not only am I famous in New York City, and the United States, Japan, I am famous internationally! You know you are famous, when a stranger spits out his food, and harasses you in Kenya! I also struggled with bipolar disorder all my life. I have delusional thoughts. My mood goes up, and down, but I made it! This is my story of becoming famous, and staying famous as a model, and an artist,…and a muse! What did I learn throughout this crazy journey? I wonder. I am bipolar. I have megalomania. I have a problem that I am too self important. I have tendencies to think that I am superior to others. This mania got me in a lot of trouble in my life. I have been in so many heinous sexual encounters. Also been robbe