Camouflaged Shame

Kaneke Brave

Description

Camouflaged Shame combines the insights the life experiences of a woman who has survived the horrors of military sexual trauma with the path she travels to find her healing and self-love.
Camouflaged Shame combines the insights the life experiences of a woman who has survived the horrors of military sexual trauma with the path she travels to find her healing and self-love. This book is not only for those women who have experienced military sexual trauma, but also their loved ones and family members who have been affected as well.

Sujets

• Women in the military
• Sexual assault
• Self-help
• MST

Informations

• Publié par: Balboa Press
• Date de parution: 27 septembre 2022
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9798765229835
• Langue: English

Extrait

CAMOUFLAGED SHAME
A Path to Redemption After Military Sexual Trauma
Kaneke Brave


Copyright © 2022 Kaneke Brave.
 
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Any people depicted in stock imagery provided by Getty Images are models, and such images are being used for illustrative purposes only.
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Interior Image Credit: Kaneke Brave
 
 
 
ISBN: 979-8-7652-2982-8 (sc)
ISBN: 979-8-7652-2984-2 (hc)
ISBN: 979-8-7652-2983-5 (e)
 
Library of Congress Control Number: 2022910889
 
Balboa Press rev. date: 09/20/2022
Contents
Acknowledgments
Prologue
PART I
1 Receiving
Whom Is This Book For?
Military Sexual Assault Statistics
2 Before the Shame
The Battle before My War
Why I Joined the Marine Corps
3 New Recruit
Basic Training
MOS School
4 Strength Test
First Duty Station—Shame Shows Its Face
5 Tested Again
Second Duty Station—Shame Has a Follow-Up, a Sequel, and a Trilogy
6 Plan
Discharged
Suicide Attempt
PART II
7 Execute
Depression
Anxiety, Panic Attacks, and Nightmares
8 Coordinate
New Belief System
Mind
Body
Soul
9 Manage
Ask for Help
Finding the Right Help
Positive Coping Methods
10 Assess
New Outlook on Life
Taking Back Control
Acceptance
11 Report
Other Tools for Healing
Learning to Be Present
Mindfulness
Love Heals
12 Safety
Forgiveness
13 Dependability
Find Healthy Structure in Your Environment
Find a Safe Place
Have Strong Support
14 Knowledge
For Loved Ones
Be an Emotional Support System
Just Listen
Encourage, Don’t Judge
Respect Our Boundaries
Don’t Treat Us as if We Are Broken
Don’t Try to Fix Us
 
Conclusion
About the Author
Resources for Those Needing Help with MST

I dedicate this book to my fellow women veterans who have camouflaged the shame of military sexual trauma (MST) but continue to fight the battle in their heads every day while manipulating the world around them. I pray they find peace, joy, and love so they will thrive in ways they never imagined. May they find the path to healing and learn to love themselves again.
This book is dedicated also to those who have lost their lives because of the pain they could no longer endure and to all the families left behind with no understanding of their struggles. My ultimate wish is for anyone who has been affected by the nightmare of MST to find healing.
To my beautiful daughters, may you always know that you never have to struggle alone regardless of what it may be. I pray that you never have to endure the pain I had to. Listen to your gut, and don’t second-guess your feelings when you sense something or someone is not right. May you all find your true calling in love, life, and careers without having to battle the nightmares I had to.
To my handsome sons, remember all our private talks. I will always be your soft place when you need me and your tough love when you deserve it. We have been through so much together, and I am so thankful for the love you taught me to receive and give without boundaries.
You too have lived through my hell, and you saw the ugly face of post-traumatic stress disorder in me. My pain was not yours to carry, and I pray you also find healing and forgiveness for my failure to do better.
To all my children, learn to live your life to the fullest. Manifest your true potential so you can live your best lives. Learn to love without boundaries. Be your authentic selves, and learn to love yourselves first so you can love others the way you deserve to be loved. Learn to laugh at your mistakes and be okay with them while you grow from those mistakes. Most important, remember to keep God as the center of your life and you will always have the guidance you need. The sky is the limit.
To my husband, Darius, my best friend and soulmate, you are my blessing. All the pain I battled and wrestled with before you was worth it now that I am your wife. I feel so blessed to have been given the opportunity to be your wife and spend the rest of my life with you. I dedicate this book to you for all the unconditional support you have always given and continue to give me. Even when we were just friends back on Marine Corps Air Station, Hawaii, you were always there for me selflessly. You know my deepest, darkest moments and yet you continue to love me. You make me feel safe, loved, heard, and valued. Without your love and support, I would never have had the strength to write and finish this book.
Acknowledgments
I thank my heavenly Father for His grace, mercy, and favor. Without Him, I would never have made it through these years. My faith has provided me with the comfort I needed when I didn’t find it in the world.
I also thank those who doubted me and told me I would be nothing. Their doubts gave me the motivation to push through and use my inner strength to overcome all the obstacles in my path.
Thank you to my amazing children, for being my ultimate inspiration. I am blessed to be your mother; I have no doubt God planned things with you all for a reason. You each have taught me to be a better mother and inspired me to seek how I can be better every day. I am so proud of what you have become so far, and I can’t wait to share in all of your successes and blessings.
Thank you to my most incredible husband, without whom I wouldn’t be where I am today. God brought you back into my life when I was ready to receive all you had to give. I am so very grateful for the wonderful man, father, brother, and husband you are. Your unconditional love, support, loyalty, protection, and compassion will never be taken for granted.
Thank you, Dr. Jimenez. You gave me the tools to blossom into the woman I am today. I am so blessed to have you as my guide and clarity. You taught me to challenge my beliefs and see alternative realities. I will forever appreciate everything you taught me. Thank you for calling me out when I needed it and for reminding me who I really was. I will use my toolbox and smile, because you showed me that I had the tools, I just needed to open the box and start using them.
I thank my father, who instilled in me the ability to push myself no matter how hard that could be. He taught me that a man should provide and protect, not take away from and hurt you. Thank you for also teaching me how important family is.
Thank you to my mother for reminding me that I can be loved. When I needed encouragement, she gave it.
Thank you to my bonus mother. She inspired me to be the best mother I could be. Watching her sacrifice and her strength through adversity, reminded me that I could do it all if I put my mind to it.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me along the way all these years. May the Lord bless you and provide you with strength and knowledge you need to conquer all your dreams as I am trying to do.
I want to especially give a special thanks to the following individuals for their support and inspiration this past year. This book was written for many, but each of them gave me encouragement and believed in what I had to say so it could come to fruition.
Prologue
Military sexual trauma (MST) is the term that the Department of Veterans Affairs uses to refer to sexual assault or repeated, threatening sexual harassment that occurred while the Veteran was in the military. It includes any sexual activity where someone is involved against his or her will—he or she may have been pressured into sexual activities (for example, with threats of negative consequences for refusing to be sexually cooperative or with implied faster promotions or better treatment in exchange for sex), may have been unable to consent to sexual activities (for example, when intoxicated), or may have been physically forced into sexual activities. Other experiences that fall into the category of MST include unwanted sexual touching or grabbing; threatening, offensive remarks about a person’s body or sexual activities; and/or threatening or unwelcome sexual advances. —US Department of Veterans Affairs

This book is not meant to be the solution to overcome the trauma you’ve endured but more of a facilitator and inspiration for you to seek the help in healing your spirit. I pray this book can show you that there are different paths to healing bu