Letters from Vietnam

Joseph Allen Freeborn

Description

This book tells of this draftee’s struggles, sacrifices and ultimate survival of a war he wanted nothing to do with. The letters recorded here are actual unedited reproductions of the letters he received in Nam and letters he sent home. The author took many years to compile this book, with the hope that reader could get a better sense of that divisive war fought so many years ago. The thought of writing this book at first was overwhelming, as he had spent so much time and energy trying to forget his time in Vietnam. The author refers to his time in Nam as his "lost year." It is the author’s hope that by reading this book you might consider the hundreds of thousands of young men that had similar experiences during their time in Vietnam.

Sujets

• Histoire
• Military
• Vietnam War
• History

Informations

• Publié par: Outskirts Press
• Date de parution: 16 août 2019
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9781478782339
• Langue: English

Extrait

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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Bob Hampel, my good friend and fellow Vietnam veteran. You encouraged me to keep writing and convinced me the story was worth telling. So I did.
To my loving wife Angie, who quietly and consistently supported the hours I spend researching this work and the years I struggled writing it. Thanks for waiting.
To my brothers of Bravo Company 1 st /46 th –196 th Light Infantry Brigade, this is your story too. We all lived the events I talk about here. You were a brave and tough bunch of young men. I salute you all, Welcome Home!
Contents
Chapter 1 Arrival in Country
Chapter 2 One Year Earlier
Chapter 3 Marble Mountain
Chapter 4 Earlier Years
Chapter 5 Six Months Earlier
Chapter 6 Don ’ t Mean Nothin ’
Chapter 7 Letters from Home
Chapter 8 The Lowlands
Chapter 9 Early October – Winds of Change
Chapter 10 Be Home January 1, 1972!
Chapter 11 Typhoon Hester
Chapter 12 China Beach
Chapter 13 Report To Saigon
Chapter 14 Christmas In Nam
Chapter 15 Back To The World
Chapter 16 Operation Linebacker II
Chapter 17 Can Anyone Type?
Chapter 18 My Last Days in Vietnam
Chapter 19 Goodbye Vietnam
Introduction–Letters from Vietnam
This story represents thousands of stories over the ten-year span of the Vietnam War. Safe or secure places in Vietnam did not exist. The enemy did not discriminate; they went after everyone, every rank and gender, military or civilian that opposed their ideology.
This book depicts a snapshot in time during a very divisive war and how it affected the author’s decisions, moods and wellbeing. The letters are copies of the exact text from the mail he sent and received. There are instances names were changed, but the content of the letters are accurate. These letters were saved by the author and he carefully preserved them when he returned home. They stood as a reminder of those days in Nam. He would read some of them from time to time, trying to make sense of this senseless war. In 1985, shortly after his Dad’s death, he found all the letters he had written his Dad. He cherished them all.
He was fortunate to have his job waiting for him when he returned from Nam, his girlfriend had waited for him and his friends were supportive. These things were crucial to his successful integration to civilian life, but the war continued to nag him. "Why me?" he would ponder. "Why was I the only person in my high school graduating class to be drafted and sent to Vietnam?"
These questions haunted the author for years after returning home. Troubled and confused, he sat down with his Dad one day and opened up to his feelings. Hesitant and ashamed, he told his Dad how he felt betrayed and used. He felt singled out having to risk his life, livelihood and entire future on an unjust war. His Dad, a World War II veteran and prisoner of war, listened and reflected on everything he said. He then replied, "Joey, we cannot pick the wars our country gets involved in, all we can do is respond to them. Your service to the country was needed, and you stepped up. You proved to yourself what you were made of, and you proved to your country, you are a patriot."
The author had been steeped in self-pity and shame, the America he returned to influenced those feelings. That day was the beginning of his healing, which continues to this day.
He served, survived and wrote this book for future generations to better understand the effects of the Vietnam War.
Arrival in Country
Chapter 1
It was hot! About 95 degrees as close as I could figure; the day was dry and clear, blue skies, with a few high puffy white clouds, not the way I imagined this place to be.
Cam Rahn Bay, South Vietnam, was a small strategic seaport built and operated by the 18th Engineering Brigade. The 124th Transport Command took over this base in April 1971.
We arrived at the airfield on August 3, 1971, around 10 AM. I expected to have to get off the plane shooting. As I came to the doorway, I saw the bright sun-filled day; and was intently listening for automatic weapon fire, but heard none. As I came down the stairs and walked into the warm sunlight, I remember thinking what a strange place.
The terrain was mountainous around the north and east boundaries. I could see the South China Sea as I walked towards the small terminal. I noticed sand everywhere; it looked hot and loose, nothing growing on it, like a beach, with buildings all around. Once through the terminal, I realized how hot and loose the sand was; my brand-new jungle boots sank into the sand nearly to my ankles, making walking difficult. I could feel the heat of the sand through my boots, everything here was hot! I started to become annoyed after only a few minutes in country.
We assembled in front of the small hut to get our assignments for work details, bunks, mess information, etc. I remember seeing four GIs across a small roadway waiting for the next "Freedom Bird" back to the world. They had blank hardened looks on their faces and appeared to be in a trance. They were haggard and tired looking, their clothes were shabby, and they weren’t Army issue. I remember thinking it would take me 12 months (my full tour of duty) to get from here to there, assuming I made it out of here at all.
What the hell was I doing here? I disliked this place; that smelly smoke off at a distance was making me nauseous. Beads of sweat formed as I stood waiting in the sweltering heat. It was like a bad dream.
Later that morning, a few of us newbies were sitting around a table in the EM club. We were uncomfortably hot, despite the few slowly rotating fans blowing the warm air around. We sat there trying to enjoy a cheeseburger of sorts, not very authentic, but after all this was Nam. Except for a few new arrivals, the club was empty. The heat was too much for the regular permanent party personnel (military personnel permanently stationed there); they knew where the cool places were. We sat there for a time sweating, discussing this strange place. The fear we all felt was thinly masked, I kept thinking just 24 hours ago I was in Seattle, Washington. Now I stood at the gates of hell.
I found my first letter to Dad difficult to write; it took a few days to collect my thoughts and get them on paper. I’m sure he was eager to hear from me.
I recall leaving my Dad standing at the end of the sidewalk; I had this image burned in my memory. We walked out of the house; I was a few steps ahead of him carrying my duffel bag. When I got to the end of the sidewalk, I stopped and waited a second for him to reach me. I glanced at him and he turned away, not wanting to face this goodbye, or me. The look on his face was flush as to cry. He wouldn’t cry however, as I only saw him cry twice, once when his mother died and once when my mother died. His pride would not allow any signs of weakness now; his little boy was going to war, he needed to be strong for both of us. I extended my hand to shake his; he grabbed me and said "good luck." I mumbled something like take care of yourself; the exchange was awkward, neither of us wanted to say goodbye. I knew how proud he was of me, I knew he loved me; I knew he would worry about me every day and pray for me. I turned and shoved my bag into the trunk of Angie’s car. As we drove off, I looked back to see my Dad standing at the end of the sidewalk.
My girlfriend Angie was kind enough to take me to the bus station that morning. We tried to keep the conversation light when we spoke. The 20-minute ride to the bus station was uncomfortable for both of us, we had so much to say, but words were hard coming. In training they told us to forget your girlfriends at home. They would not be waiting for you, I didn’t dwell on this but I knew it was a real possibility. I wasn’t even sure if I was coming home. I had a one-way ticket, with an uncertain future. Unfortunately Angie had feelings for the guy who drew the short straw and was heading out to that despicable place. I was lucky she was giving me a lift; let alone her waiting for me.
When we got to the bus station in Newburgh, I didn’t prolong the goodbye. I told her again I loved her and would write soon, and she affirmed her love for me and would also write. It was difficult for both of us. I promised I’d be careful and told her I’d miss her. We kissed and then I boarded the bus to JFK Airport.
On the evening of my first day at Cam Rahn Bay, I was scared and homesick. I was in the tightest jam of my 20 years, green and scared of the unknown horrors this place might have in store. My stomach was upset, I was thirsty and the nearest latrine (bathroom) was somewhere across the dark sandy compound. I didn’t know where anything was; I resigned myself to snooping around the next day to get the lay of the land. Thirsty, sweaty and exhausted, I drifted off to sleep, thinking tomorrow might be better.
The next three days weren’t much better; I woke the first morning to that sickening odor, the smell I had encount