Pocket Guide to Mending a Broken Heart

Annette Daly G.

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I would like to share the second part of my journey through heartache with you. I would like to wait with you through the darkness and go into the light at the end of this tunnel. I''m not at the end of this tunnel of headache and pain just yet, but I can see a glimmer of that light in the distance--walk with me.

Sujets

• Sociologie, société et politique

Informations

• Publié par: Austin Macauley Publishers LLC
• Date de parution: 31 mars 2020
• Nombre de lectures: 0
• EAN13: 9781645368175
• Langue: English
• Poids de l'ouvrage: 2 Mo

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Pocket Guide to Mending a Broken Heart
G. Annette Daly
Austin Macauley Publishers
2020-03-31
Pocket Guide to Mending a Broken Heart About the Author Dedication Copyright Information © Acknowledgment Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13 Part 14 Part 15
About the Author
G. Annette Daly is an ordinary woman from North County Dublin. She was expelled from school at the tender age of 15 to her delight, as she didn’t like school and thought it was more about testing memory than testing intelligence. Bleaching her hair blonde was a huge rebellious act in the eyes of a strict Catholic Convent school. Annette comes from a struggling working-class background with no frills attached. She has learned mixed lessons in life the hard way and probably the only way! “Because we learn very little from the good old times and more about who we are and what we want through blood, sweat, and tears. We learn more about our limitations and our expectations through the bullshit we face on this journey we call life.”
Dedication
I would like to dedicate my book first and foremost to my creator. I don’t know who or what you are, but I know you exist and that’s good enough for me. Do any of us truly know? I think not.
I would also like to dedicate this book to my dear friend and confidant, Dr. Mitry. You have helped me through some bizarre and tough times, and for this, I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Copyright Information ©
G. Annette Daly (2020)
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Publisher’s Cataloging-in-Publication data
Daly, G. Annette
Pocket Guide to Mending a Broken Heart
ISBN 9781643785653 (Paperback)
ISBN 9781643785660 (Hardback)
ISBN 9781645368175 (ePub e-book)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2019917073
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Acknowledgment
This is the second part of a journey through the muddy waters of a breakup, a breakdown, and a few breakthroughs, which I navigate through with a little humor, lots of bad language, and a very open mind.
Part 1
“Out of the darkness comes the light!” So they say! When we are in a very dark place, this can sound like bullshit! I know I once thought that too! About five months ago, to be exact, my relationship came to an end. This relationship was my world, my life, my prison! And when it ended, my world as I knew it, as I had created, it fell apart. I was stripped down from everything I had built, everything I had invested myself in mentally, physically, and emotionally. It shook me to my core. I was devastated. I was a broken woman! And to be honest, I was a broken woman before my relationship had ended well before! But I never knew how broken I was. It took my heart to be cracked right open for me to find out, and this is how I know that through the darkness we can find the light – a very big bright light! Now all this shit happened about five months ago and I can’t say that all the pain is gone because it’s not, but it has eased, thank fuck! The storm has broken but I still feel a bit seasick. I still feel a deep sadness and loss. He was my best friend and at the same time he was my enemy! I think that’s called a FRENEMY! And now that the storm has passed, it’s time for me to put my broken life back together, and this time I’m putting it back together my way! There’s no knight in shining armor going to take me off into the sunset to live happily ever after! And you know what? That’s not what I want. I’m not looking for someone to come and rescue me! I want to be the knight in shining armor my own shining armor. So a little rundown on the story! Just a little one! I won’t go into too much detail because that’s just DIGGING OVER OLD GROUND! And I don’t want to be digging up all that crap! Besides it’s all in the first part of my story pocket guide for a broken heart! It’s all the tears, all the misery, and how I tried to get through it. My four-year relationship, nearly five, had come to an end! He dumped me and I was gutted! I was depressed! I was so unhappy and completely lost! But this part of my story five months later is not all about the dark. It’s about finding some light! And to find that light, I had to find myself! Before we go any further, can I just say PLEASE don’t listen to love songs while you’re trying to mend your broken heart? It’s just rubbing salt into the wound, a very deep wound. Now you wouldn’t do that to any other part of your body, like a big wound on your ass, so don’t do it to your heart. Love songs are nice when you’re in love, stepping through the daisies, fucking birds singing over your head, and you feel like Cinderella who just found her Prince Charming! It’s sad but true because that’s what can happen to us when we fall in love! I don’t ever want to feel like that again! It’s not real, and nine times out of ten, it doesn’t last. It’s not that I don’t want to be in love. Of course I do. It’s wonderful. It’s beautiful, but I just don’t want the type of love where you feel away with the fairies. I like my two feet being firmly on the ground, so in my opinion it’s best not to listen to all that romantic shit while you’re healing your heart. It’s just SELF-TORTURE! I don’t even know if that’s a real word: self-torture, but it fits the part! I’ve been listening to some really nice native Indian music. It’s really nice, funky, and uplifting! I’m beginning to sound like my mother using the word “funky.” I’m going to change that to modern and uplifting! I’ll tell you the names of the albums when I find the covers there probably fucked on the backseat of my car. I’ll look for them later! So native Indian music gets a big, fat thumbs-up, and love songs get a big, fat middle-finger-up. I’m not saying I will never listen to romantic music ever again. I probably will but just not for the foreseen future. The second thing to go is SOCIAL MEDIA! I don’t want nor need to have any connection to my ex, and not only him, this is a private time in my life for healing! Not sitting on social media crying, putting up all sorts of quotes about how I feel for the whole fucking world and their mother to see, none of that shit will be happening. Besides, you should never air your dirty linen in public! It was while talking to a friend of mine when I decided to delete my social media accounts! I was giving her some advice that she had asked me for about her ex who was playing hot and cold with her! I told her maybe she should cut off all contact with him. They had no ties to each other, no children together, so it was okay for her to do it! And for once in my life, I took my own advice! The next morning, I woke up and went over in my head what I had told my friend and decided I too must totally disconnect from my ex so I could move on, really move on. I still had some contact with him, very little, but I was starting to see him more in the past few weeks and it was dragging me back. It made me hurt. It made me feel like I was back there, back at that horrible place again! I was back five months ago where all the bad pain was! I had moved on from the heart-numbing agony of the initial breakup, and now seeing him was like groundhog fucking day, reliving the gut-wrenching agony of him leaving! So no more of that shit! I have taken myself out of that scenario one hundred percent and also from social media, and I fully intend to keep it that way. I don’t need to see pictures of him on FAKEBOOK and other social media sites, and I don’t need to see him in person. Well, neither of us were good for each other. I can see that so clearly now. I still love him but we were bad for each other. We both had our issues! And our issues could only be fixed without each other! There is still a lot of love and chemistry between us. I could feel it when I last saw him and it wasn’t just coming from me, but there is no place in my life for him anymore and I can’t see there being one in the future. That makes me both sad and relieved. I couldn’t FIX HIM! God knows I tried. The only person I can fix is myself.
Part 2
It’s time to LET GO! I tried to do it right from the start of our breakup, but these things take time. It’s a process, a painful and lonely one, but all births are painful and all deaths are lonely! And that’s what a breakup is, a death and a birth! It’s a death to everything you knew and loved death to all the things you couldn’t change or fix, and it’s a birth to a new world, a new world full of new horizons, full of possibilities, full of new hope, and full of shit ass well! There is always shit and there are always assholes! But everything is as it should be. We are always where we are supposed to be in life. It might not seem like this at the time, but it will all fall into place in the end. It always does! So hold on tight. It’s just another ROCKY ROAD, with lots of bumps on the way, but a bumpy ride is always more exciting, more challenging, and more rewarding. After all, it’s the rocky, lonely, and winding roads in life that take us to the most beautiful places! So let’s get back to “letting go.” In